blah. I’m not sure how I feel. Fuck it, I don’t know how I feel.
Disappointment, yes. In myself, no. I worked hard. I gathered volunteers. I organized them. I did perfect from a campaign finance perspective. I didn’t fund raise and managed to break even. I worked through busy season and managed to knock on around 3000 houses and talk to a lot of people. I did my part. That should have been enough campaigning to get 1000 votes. But, no.
Disappointed in society, yes. Turnout was lower than it was last cycle, and there was even a city council race this time!
My goal was always 1000 votes. I thought I would win with 1000 votes. I was right. The result was 838 – 566.
I believed in the work I was doing and thought that was the way to motivate people to participate. I was wrong. It was foolish to believe I could convince people to care. It was foolish to think people could care. I was a fool, and it was a mistake.
And I will make that mistake time and time again because I don’t want to become the person who loses faith in us, in humanity.
I won’t run for the Board of Trustees again. I probably won’t run for office again, especially anytime soon. But I’ll find some other way to help society. I didn’t mind losing on Saturday because I was going to be fine regardless. I wasn’t running for my own good. I wanted to help, and I will help.
I just don’t know how yet. I’ll reassess, myself, life, goals, and etc, but I’ll be fine. I didn’t get this far in life without adversity and this won’t be last time I fail. I just need some time, which seems to be the one thing of which we can’t get enough.
So in conclusion, . . . fuck and double fuck. Good luck Nancy and congratulations.
In a completely rational society, the best of us would be teachers and the rest of us would have to settle for something less, because passing civilization along from one generation to the next ought to be the highest honor and the highest responsibility anyone could have. -Lee Iacocca, automobile executive (b. 1924)