My parents threw me a graduation party last year.
Along with all the other graduation related stuff, they bought a banner. It has the standard Congratulations Graduate writing on it. It started feeling weird having it up around October. I told myself I would take it down after a year. A year seems like a proper amount of time to have it up.
I don’t remember the exact day of the party, but I’ve been looking for an extra reason to take it down. I’m not sure why, but I have hesitated. Then something unexpected happened yesterday.
I was taking a shower and I thought about death. Then for the first time, in a long time, death scared me.
Wasn’t I ok with it?
Anyway, when I got out of the shower and looked at the banner I realized why I didn’t want to take it down yet. Taking it down would mean accepting that a part of my life is over and I’m that much closer to death.
I should take it down. I can’t live life in fear.
In other news, well, I guess I can save that until tomorrow. I’ll have to make some other news.
Words — so innocent and powerless as they are, as standing in a dictionary, how potent for good and evil they become in the hands of one who knows how to combine them. -Nathaniel Hawthorne, writer (1804-1864)