I’m not sad. I’m just tired.
It’s tough because I’m getting caught up in the stuff I don’t know, which is causing me to work a bit harder than I would like, but I’m also still trying to leave a good impression since this is the first time I’m working with a lot of these people, which is making me work even harder.
Now that I’m writing this out, it is reminding me of a book I read a while ago. It was called Why Good People Make Bad Decisions. The summary is that good/rational people make small compromises because of pressures/incentives and a combination of those small compromises lead people to make bad decisions.
Haha, so I fell asleep last night, while I was writing this. I think I was a bit more tired than I expected.
So, I woke up and I started sneezing like crazy. I got in my car and was driving to work when my nose started running. Water was coming out of that thing all day until about 6:30pm. It was so frustrating. I couldn’t breathe and that gave me a headache. I still got stuff done though, but it was frustrating.
I was just thinking that it had been so long since I was sick. Might have jinxed myself. It was probably the staff that I have been working with this week. She was sneezing a lot Monday/Tuesday. I thought she had allergies, but I asked her today and she said he had been sick last week. How dare her try to get me sick?
At least it’s almost the end of the week? Thursday is pretty close to the end of the week and today the manager said that the client leaves early on Friday, like at 2 or 3pm. So, yes, it’s almost the end of the week.
Anyway, I came home and worked some more. I logged off about 30 mins ago. Now it’s finally time for some rest. I’ll have to get up in about 5 hours.
Boom! I can do it, I think.
I actually went jogging this morning. It was really cold outside. I believe it was like 19 degrees and there was a slight wind chill. I did it because I was less than two weeks into my morning jogging initiative and didn’t want to skip so early. It wasn’t too bad after the first 5 minutes. It wasn’t so cold after those 5 minutes. I’m fairly proud of myself.
Flip side, I think I’m getting sick. I sneezed a lot at work today. Also, in the afternoon, a bunch of water started coming out of my nose. It was gross. Now my bones hurt a little bit. I don’t think it’s because of the jog, since I woke up with a headache. The guy who sits next to me at work has been sick all week.
oh, once I got to work I took an Emergen-C. I took another in the afternoon and another when I got home. The last time I felt sick I did the same thing and I swear it helped me run through the symptoms and the entire cold/flu ordeal. Busy season just started. I can’t be sick.
Man, I’ve been thinking about some work stuff. I need some time to finish some thoughts and then I’ll write it down.
I’ve been getting to work early, usually around 7:30am.
Like I said in another post, there just aren’t enough hours in the work day. I’ll get to work, set out to do some things, and end up not doing a majority of the things, if any at all. So I get to work early and do actual work for about an hour and half to two hours. Then I try to squeeze in as much work as possible, even though I’m interrupted with meetings and small seemingly pointless tasks.
I’ve also been working a bit from home. Again, I’ll do some work at home for about an hour and half to two hours. I try not to do anything really taxing, because I’m kinda tired at that point. But stuff has to get done, you know?
It hasn’t been too bad yet. I’m not feeling that tired. I was feeling sick during the weekend, but I loaded up on emergen-Cs and I think it worked. It might actually be giving too much energy. I’ve been getting 5 hours to sleep and feeling alright. I actually worked out yesterday and jogged today.
There’s a meeting at the House of Blues tomorrow. It’s a KPMG meeting with a happy hour and small reception thing immediately after the meeting. That should be fun. On top of that, the Arctic Monkeys concert is tomorrow! That should be amazing. I’ll try to keep expectations low though.
Alright, I should try to get a little more sleepy than usual, because the rest of the week is pretty busy too. More on that later.
I think the surgery went well. I can see well.
So the surgery was weird. There were lasers, suction cups, and more lasers. I don’t want to spend time going through the details of the procedures. I do want to say that I wasn’t as nervous as I thought I would be. I definitely wasn’t afraid. I did get nervous while the eye was exposed and probably right in between the procedure when I knew there was no turning back.
I was doing well until I left the building. Once I got in the car my eyes began tearing excessively. It took a while to get to sleep when I got home, but when I finally did, I slept for 4 hours. When I woke up, the tearing was gone. I started taking my eye drops when I woke up.
I went to the follow up appointment the next day in the morning, Saturday. The doctor said I was doing well and to keep taking the drops.
So yea, the surgery was Friday. I didn’t do anything Saturday or today. I thought My eyes might be doing ok, but I started feeling sick this afternoon. My throat hurts and I have a weird cough. I’m not liking this.
Man, I’ll have to do a lot of work tomorrow. Especially since I have to take my sister to orientation on Thursday and Friday. That means I have another 3 day work week. I guess I’ll know by Tuesday how I close I’ll be to getting everything to QC by the 18th.
My eyes are getting tired.
This grandpa thing has made me tired.
I’ve been thinking about it most of the day. I’ve known he was going to die. He’s been frail for a while and I’ve known about his worsen condition for a few days. I haven’t felt bad. I didn’t feel bad.
I think he was a bad person. The good he did in this world is outweighed by the bad. That definitely made his impending death easier to bear.
These feelings made me indifferent to his death. But now I almost feel bad for him. I know he made mistakes, but he didn’t try to correct them. He wasted the opportunities at redemption.
Now he’s been suffering for about 2 years. First, he loses his wife. Then, he has to leave his home in Mexico and come to Dallas, which he never really liked. Finally, all the medial issues. It’s been a horrible 2 years. I’m almost feeling sorry for him.
I think I do feel sorry for him. I’m not sure yet.
Your assumptions are your windows on the world. Scrub them off every once in a while, or the light won’t come in. -Alan Alda, actor and director (b. 1936)
Today was the first time I bailed early. Although in my flu medicine induced haze, I’m starting to remember a similar situation happening around the beginning of January.
Anyway, I woke up early and managed to convince myself that I didn’t need to go in early. I finally woke up around 8am with a giant headache. It was a nice buzzing headache that liked to spike up the pain every 10 to 30 seconds.
First thing on my agenda was dropping of my final campaign report. I gathered my stuff and drove to the DISD building. I gave them the final report and headed to work. Work was tough because of the headache. I took pills. By lunch time the headache hadn’t gone away. Lunch was delicious. We went to Jimmy’s around Fitzhugh and Ross. They have delicious sandwiches! I took more pills. Headache didn’t go away and I bailed around 2:30pm.
I get home and go to sleep for a good 3 hours. Then I got up and jogged. I came home, ate, watched SNL, and now I’m here. I’m about to go to sleep again because I’m sleepy. Also, I took more pills.
You must have been warned against letting the golden hours slip by. Yes, but some of them are golden only because we let them slip by. -James M. Barrie, novelist and playwright (1860-1937)