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House Tired

I’m tired.

It’s been a busy two weeks. There was the weekend when I moved into the house and showed my friend around LA. The work week that followed that weekend was tough. The client I was on for that week, which I’m still on, is by LAX. It’s only 20 miles away, but it takes at least an hour to get there in the morning if I leave before 7am.

My phone fucked me over last Thursday and said it was ringing, but it wasn’t making any noise. That day I left a bit before 7:20am and I didn’t get to the client’s office until 9:15am. It sucked.

So after a week of doing that, the weekend was busy too. I needed to change the locks on the house. I still needed to clean it. I needed to finally wash my car, inside and out. I needed to unpack. I needed to watch some TV. It was a long weekend.

I got most of it done, but I still have a big list of stuff to do. Like a haircut would be nice.

This week I’m down at LAX again. Back to complaining for a minute. Man, it takes a lot of time out of my day to get there and back. I can wake up early to avoid traffic. I end up at the client’s office early, like before 8am, but then it’s not like I can leave at 5pm. I guess I could, but if I did it would take me an hour and 30 minutes to get back home. If I wait until 7, it’ll take 50 minutes to get back home. I don’t know. It can get too stressful if I think about it.

Anyway, I get home and have a few hours to try to do stuff. I end up eating, watering the lawn, and watching some TV.

So I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m looking forward to this Memorial Day weekend. It’ll be an extra day when I can nap and try to fix some stuff at the house. I can clean a bit and maybe read a book or finally get those last 4 badges.


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Four Floors Below

Something surprised me today. It was me.

There are parts of my job that are repetitive. Maybe repetitive is not the right word. Parts of my job are recurring. That is because most audits follow the same pattern. You plan them. You test the significant accounts. You fill out conclusion workpapers.

The planning has a few key parts. Those key parts vary slightly by client, but I have done them enough, in different ways, to not worry about them. Testing the significant accounts is the biggest part of the audit. Most areas are, this is the right time to say it, repetitive. The clients are different enough to make one or two of those testing areas different and exciting. The conclusion stuff is usually the boring stuff. That can change based on how the testing goes, but at that point of the audit you kinda just want it to be over.

Sometimes you get thrown some thing different. It’ll be something that completely changes planning, or the testing. You’ll have to do beginning balance testing, or a liquidation audit, or a quarterly review, or something. Or it’ll be something different enough to be exciting and to make me extremely nervous.

I’ll be nervous from the moment they tell me about the work until I actually start it.

Today I started one of those different types of clients, but surprisingly I wasn’t nervous. I hadn’t been nervous the days before today. I didn’t notice it until I was driving back home this afternoon. Also, I think I wasn’t nervous because it was on a bit of a short notice. They told me about this work on Thursday of last week. So I only had about 4 days to think about it and two of those days were weekend days.

Either way, I think this might be sign that I am growing, you know professionally.

It’s a strange feeling.

oh, and the different work we were doing was at another public accounting firm’s office. Their office was in the same building as ours but four floors down.

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Get Some Rest

I wanted to work this weekend, but I didn’t.

The days got away from me and every time I thought about pulling out the computer working for a few hours, I decided to do something else instead. For example, I washed the car, or I went to the movies, or I went for a jog.

I feel way rested and, you know what, I don’t really care what’s in my email. I’ll figure it out tomorrow morning. Besides, on Friday, we had another depressing talk at work. It turns out almost everyone gets rated a 3 for their performance review. The scale is 1-5 and apparently, only people who are up for promotions get rated 2s or 1s. Everyone else gets a 3, especially first level associates and senior associates. That being said, why even try? It’s going to be a 3.

Either way, I’m sleepy and I can’t wait for this busy season thing to be over.

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Busy Quarterly Work

Man I’ve been so busy at work the last couple of days.

The last two weeks really. Being a senior is surprisingly more work, than actually more difficult. Still, it’s taking up a lot of time. It’s not exhausting me yet, but I’m sure I’ll get there in a few weeks.

I’m pretty glad Thanksgiving is coming up soon. That will remove my irrational guilt of not working.

Actually, you know what. I’m might already be tired, because as I’m typing this, it’s not making much sense. Well no. It makes sense, but it doesn’t sound like me. And I don’t like that.

With that in mind, I’ll write when I’m thinking more clearly. You should have seen the typos I had written.

But here are some quick points.

It’s cold – the wind is making it worse. I kinda like it because it’s different, but I’m sure I’ll get tired of it soon.

My tummy hurts – I go too long between lunch and dinner. After that 8th hour of not eating, my stomach gets all bubbly and starts to hurt. I don’t like that.

Vitamins – I’ve been taking some Emergen Cs because I thought I could use more vitamins in my life. If I don’t get sick this winter, I might give credit to vitamins.

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Pre Valentine’s Day

Yea, this isn’t related to Valentine’s Day at all.

Man, I’ve been working a ton. I was up to 52 hours today. I still have a solid two more days to go this week. Maybe even some Sunday stuff.

I am astonishingly hungry. Blah, and tired.

I’m so enjoying the Avatar, original and sequel.

Yea, this was better off as like three tweets.

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Pussy Riot

Pussy Riot was on the Colbert Report last night.

The two ladies on the show didn’t speak English, but they captivated me. At first I thought it was just because they’re girls and kinda cute, blah, blah, blah. But I don’t think that is what it was. I listened to their words and saw their convictions in the expression on their faces. Their struggle was real. It is real.

I’d like to think I’m a good judge of character. More often than not I give the benefit of the doubt to people, but this was different. This isn’t one of those moments. The emotions these women feel is real. Their struggles are real.

They make me want to do something more with life. More than just failing to serve in public office. More than serving in public office. Surely, there is something I can do here. Not necessarily for them, but for people.

I need to be a better person.

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The Double Takes

I watched my favorite movie today, (500) Days of Summer.

It felt like I needed it. Life is getting too messy and I need some direction. That movie usually grounds me and clears my head. Although that movie raises a ton of questions for me, there are a couple that came to mind today.

Early in the movie, when the narrator is describing Summer, he says that she averages 18.something double takes during her commute to work. I don’t usually do double takes. It happens so rarely, that I can remember the few times it actually has happened. It’s honestly only happened about 4 times.

Does it happen more often to other guys? I wonder how many times guys do double takes, on average.  Why does it happen so rarely to me? Maybe because it happens so rarely, they are important. What if one of those girls was the one?

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